Your children starting school is one of the biggest milestones you’ll face. For me it was certainly the most emotive, my babies were really growing up. It was the start of a new chapter, the boys being more independent from us, off to make new friends and learn so many new things. For families with twins, starting school means there may be some extra things to consider.
Yesterday I missed something, an event in Ethan’s school life that I should have been there for. He received two certificates at premier assembly and I wasn’t there to see him standing up in front of everyone. I didn’t see his face, searching for me in the crowd and smiling and me smiling back so proud. I know there’ll be others and he’ll soon forget it but it really upset me. I was over emotional after a long week where I hadn’t felt well and was ready for a break, but there was something else behind that guilt. It was a guilt that has been there for six and a half years.
Wordpress tells me that this is my 100th blog post so I wanted to make it a special one. One of the topics I haven’t written about yet is breastfeeding. This is because it’s a highly emotive subject, certainly for me and many others, and it’s one of those topics that everyone has an opinion about. I’m saving my breastfeeding journey for later but today I’m writing a post that I hope will be useful to both expectant and new parents and that will also be an interesting read for others.
For a long long time I struggled with the fact that I had a caesarean birth, I felt my body had failed, that a woman’s body is made for giving birth naturally and that I couldn’t. I blamed myself for not having enough knowledge around the decisions I made during labour and not knowing how to help myself to progress. I don’t know exactly when it happened but around the time I got my new job in summer last year I had a revelation of acceptance.
With Valentines Day out of the way the next date for the diary in the UK is Mother’s Day on March 11th. Whether you’re looking for something to buy for your other half from your children or you’re someone hoping to find something new for your Mum, I’ve got ten great ideas for you.
With Mother’s Day coming up in less than two weeks time, have you decided what to buy yet? Or is it that you are a mum who will be treated to your own choice of gift. I approached Lily Rose London to ask if they would work with me on a Mother’s Day giveaway and was so pleased when they offered to donate one of their gorgeous bumble bee necklaces. My Mum bought me one for Christmas and I absolutely love it.
Are you constantly tired? Excited and exhausted at the same time? Avoiding the mirror like the plague? Craving both cupcakes and your old jeans back? Every mum goes through a different emotional rollercoaster, but for the most part of the journey, the focus is on the little bundle of joy that you bring to this world. That, however, doesn’t mean that mums don’t need to go through a period of adaptation, in order to bond with the baby, embrace their changed physical appearance and find their inner femme fatale again.
I go to the desk and am told that no one can help me tonight as they have staff off sick, so I go back to my room. I start to panic as I struggle to get my head around feeding both babies by myself. I feel so alone with such a huge responsibility, overwhelmed and struggling to come to terms with what has happened over the last few days.
Our boys turned 5 today. The fast passage of time is surreal sometimes. How years seem to pass in the blink of an eye. I’m not sure if this feeling is stronger now I’m a parent or just as Im getting older. Whenever it gets close to the boy’s birthday I get that little bit more emotional thinking back to when they were born six weeks early and how small and vulnerable they were. So yesterday I started been thinking about the main things that I’ve learnt as a parent and in keeping with the 5 theme, here they are:
I’d wanted to have a baby for quite a while and we were incredibly lucky that we got pregnant within three months of starting trying. The first few weeks were pretty easy in that i did’t really have any pregnancy symptoms. It was from around 8 weeks pregnant when I started to suffer with nausea. It was constant, 24 hours a day for probably the next 8 weeks solid, although I never threw up once. As long as I kept eating little and often I could manage to control it. I remember being at work and secretly eating ginger biscuits at my desk to try to combat it. I also remember having to get up in the middle of the night to sit on the sofa and eat a flapjack because I just felt so sick and hungry at the same time!